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Self-described as a “hopeful skeptic,” Benjamin Rose uses music to tell stories and connect with people’s deepest emotions. Benjamin Rose has been writing music since they were 13 and have been performing live off and on since 2014. Since early 2018, they have been a core member of the Madison synth-rock outfit Kat and the Hurricane, winner of 3 Madison Area Music Association awards. mxbenjaminrose.com/music/ www.facebook.com/mxbenjaminrose/ www.instagram.com/mxbenjaminrose/

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song description: track is an acoustic, simple recording of Benjamin Rose singing an original song along to an acoustic guitar in a major key.

I learned to sing in a sanctuary
Where I'm afraid to use my voice
I'm walking down a path they named Hell
As if I would make that choice

My father thinks I'm wrong
But he taught me to think for myself
He bought me my first guitar
Neither of us knowing the songs I would write

They say God abhors the proud
Pride stains the holy bed with colors
All these years, should I have listened more?
Did I miss a turn, they say the road is narrow

I'm not proud of how hard it's become to pray
No excuse for heterodoxy
I'm not proud of all the names I've cursed
To make Pharisees out of family

I'm not proud but I've gotten pretty good at lying
After all, I've been doing it for years
I'm not proud, but I think the doubt in me is winning
I'm the rich man, not the meek, that much is clear

Well there's no question, I'm imperfect
Selfish and prideful, you got me right
You see, I don't always know how to love myself
And I won't apologize for trying

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from Queer Madison Mixtape Winter 2022​-​23, released January 4, 2023

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Queer Madison Mixtape Madison, Wisconsin

Queer Madison Mixtape is a Compilation of Low-Effort Recordings by Local Queers in Madison, WI.

We created a space for local queers to connect and share their quarantine tunes.

Donations for downloads will go to making Communication–a safer, sober arts and music space–more physically accessible.

QMM Collective Members: Jess Waggoner, Jennifer Bastian, Shaun Soman and Lindsay Welsch-Sveen. ... more

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